Nikki's Poem

Losing myself in reality

Bipolar personality

Made unwanted changes just so you could be proud of me

Lost friends tragically

Losing you? A tragedy.

My whole life feels like a comedy where everyone laughs but me.

June's book Debate

I'm currently reading City of Heavenly Fire by the amazing Cassandra Clare. When I read these books about Shadowhunters, it's all I can think about for a while. I remember when I first read The City Of Bones. It changed my world, because at the time to me Twilight was the best series ever. But with The Mortal Instrument in goes in to depth more. I just think Cassie is a better writer. Don't get me wrong Stephanie Meyer is an amazing writer but Cassie is better. Firstly Cassie has way more books. Twilight was the biggest series that Stephanie has ever made. Yes The Host was good, and I can't wait till the second book comes out( if it ever comes out). But Cassie has TMI, TID, The Bane Cronicles, and much more coming. But I'm just saying this because there's a dissuasion about it on goodreads. 

My Life As A Fangirl

There are many problems with being a Fangirl. Because your weird. I for one love being weird it makes me different from everyone else. Like you won't really understand me if your not a Fangirl. Like my friend Nikki is like there's something wrong with me because I was going crazy over something that happened in CoHF. I'm just me. We are who we are. We go to amazing lengths for our werid obsessions. Some may say we have a mental disease( really if you google Fangirl it will tell you). So this is a new thing I'm doing every Monday something about Fangirls. 

Today

Today I was suppose to go to Bookcon. But because I was going by myself I couldn't go. It's annoying, I'm sixteen. I should be able to do things by myself. Bright side though, I got City of Heavenly Fire. And it's so good and so big. I'm going to be reading all day. 😜😏

New Playlist of the Week

I'm coming up with a couple of new playlist. My friend Tiffani gave me a couple of songs. This is my playlist for the week.

1. Best Day of My Life by American Authors
2. Damage by Fit For Rivals
3. Make A Move by Icons For Hire
4. A Team by Ed Sheeran
5. Drunk by Ed Sheeran
6. Lego House by Ed Sheeran
7. Do I Wanna Know by Arctic Monkeys
8. Arabella by Arctic Monkeys
9. Problem by Ariana Grande ft Iggy Azalea
10. Fancy by Iggy Azalea
11. Love Don't Die by The Fray

I'm Back and Kicking Major Ass

So like I was in this real funk and i think I'm over it. I read a book that brought me out of this funk. I feel like my weird not normal self. I stayed up till 2 am last night to read this book. I haven't done this in FOREVERRRRRRR. So I'm back and I'm kicking ass. And I'm going to be staying here *nervous face* hopefully.

I Want A New Laptop D':

 I want a MacBook. I have a laptop but like it has a virus on it. I know sad. But that was before I started blogging. I'm not going to lie the reason I have virus is because I watch movies and tv online *whispers* the illegal kind of websites.
So I'm going to start saving money. But I have two problems with that.
1. I don't have a job
2. I don't know how to save money
So how am I going to save money when I don't have any income. *Shakes head* The MacBook that I want is the MacBook Pro 13 inches.
I just imagine the glossy new laptop with all the apps I want. And I won't have to use my mom laptop. This laptop cost $1,199, I plan to save money till November so I can get it on black Friday so it will be much more cheaper. Pray for me guys. *crosses fingers*

Nikki

Nurturing
Imperious
Kind
Kill anyone who messes with her friends
Insolent

Liyah

Loyal
Insolent
Youthful
Affectionate
Hard as nail

Staying Strong

I look at this girl who was done wrong by. She took care of all of us. Like the mother of us all. And she stays strong when someone took her most prized possession. She keeps a calm on the surface but beneath a storm is brewing. Its probably the biggest storm she has ever been threw. Making sure she doesn't make roots. The secret she keeps torn her from the inside out. But she's strong. Staying strong. Always strong. I'm proud to be her friend.

 

For a close friend of mine



Dark Secret Written By: Wendi Lyn

 

He took me to his room
Laid me on the bed
Can you keep a secret?
That is what he said.
He put his hands all over
Then he pushed inside
Took away my dignity
He took away my pride.

Eight years I lived in fear
Wondering what to do
I'd like to ask my mother
What if that were you
Being explored in places
I didn't know were there
Feeling so alone
Being so scared
The whole time I wondered
If anyone even cared.

So if someone asks if you can keep a secret,
make sure you know what that secret is
before you make any promises.
A secret that can hurt or even kill you or someone else
is not a secret worth keeping.

 For  my friend

My favorite Quote's From Demi Lovato & Her Book

"You're only as strong as your weakest member; you're only as positive as your most negative friend." - Kelly Armstrong

Picture from "Staying Strong, 365 Days a Year." Staying Strong, 365 Days a Year. N.p., n.d. Web. 19 Apr. 2014.

Quote from Lovato, Demi. "April 19." Staying Strong: 365 Days a Year. N.p.: n.p., n.d. N. pag. Print





Me By: Grace Tyler

I stand by myself

in a sea of people

No one sees me

Well the real me

at that

I think differently than

all my friends

I do things no one else

does

I don't care what people say

or think

I just want to escape the everyday bullshit

I have obsession

that no one does

I stand by myself in a sea of people

 

Wrote on 3/14/14

Fledgling By: Grace Tyler

I'm caged inside walls
unable to brake away.
I want outside in the trees, the fresh air, with the animals
I want to make my own way and break the shell that I'm living
I want to let go of all the people who bring me down who tells me that I can't be anyone
Who leaches off of me
I want to feel the wind in my hair standing by myself or with the one who support me
I rather be by myself then go against what I believe in
I'm untamable and can't be controlled
I'm divergent
I'm caged inside walls and I'm breaking free

Named By: Kiara Jefferson
Wrote on 3/14/14

Bump, Set, Spike By: Grace Tyler

Bump, Set, Spike
That's my way of life

The way a team works together three hits over the net.

Bump, Set, Spike
That's my way of life

Jumps higher than the net a powerful force hits the ball over the net

Bump, Set Spike
That's my way of life

At the end of the court over hand or underhand the ball flies over the net and an ace is scored

Bump, Set, Spike
That's my way of life

On the sideline cheer the score 25 the game is won

Bump, Set, Spike
That's our way if life

Wrote on 3/13/14